Weres Your Dwarf At?

Angry

2007-05-23T09:36:22Z

I`m annoyed.

I`m really pissed off at how things are at the moment,

They have been sorted out and yet they are not.

I`m fed up and annoyed.

Pompey fest soon.

2007-04-12T08:34:20Z

Okay, work is stressing me out, but I sorted all my problems out and the clinic SHOULD run smoothly from now on.

Still doesnt help i hate this job.

Pomey fest is coming soon, only today and then we`re off to fest. Should be a giggle at the very least.

Cant wait to see rhi in a bit, cant wait to get out of this place and go home.

I hope to god i get that job.

In other news, my new hamster, oscar is doing fine, we are slowely bonding.

Missing you rhi, cant wait for 8:00

Love and Peace, Azguz

azguz @ 2007-04-04T10:14:00

2007-04-04T09:25:48Z

Sid was Killed this weekend. It was a horrible accident that I will never forget.

I really have lost one of my best friends in the World. I miss him even now.

I really feel like I failed him, if I had been more careful the dog wouldn't have tried to snatch him to play with him.

If I had been faster I could of stopped the Dog.

I guess there is no point dwelling on it now. Hes gone, buried in a nice spot I picked out.

Rhi`s mum went straight out and bought another one without saying. I really needed time to mourn, to get over what happened. But its not Oscars (the new one) fault and Rhi`s mum was only trying to do what she though would help.

I guess most people didn't understand my bond with Sid. I know Rhi and Dave did.

In other news, I have two good jobs i have found to apply for. I hope I get one of them, its an excellent job with great prospects.

Spending the Holidays with Rhi over in wales. Will be wonderful to spend 4 days with her without the interfearence of work.

We then have pompey fest. i`m a bit worried as I am the only priest of longstor going and its set in a Longstorian Glade, this could end badly for me.

Also, am writing more on my LARP system, tis getting warm and is lighter so mayhaps running when its ready. its not far off.

Love you loads and loads Rhi x x x

Peace all . Azguz

Resolution

2006-09-07T16:44:01Z

So those of you who talk to me a lot know i`ve been working on a new LARP system for a fair old while now, and its about ready for a playtest.

If ppes are interested, that would be aces. If not, no worries, either way i`d appreciate it if people went to my Forum and had a read over,then sent some feedback, as i`m trying to imporve and work out all the kinks.

http://resolution.aceboard.com

thnaks for your time.

BAAAA

2006-08-19T20:11:08Z

Update, lifes good. I`m still sroting myself out for summerfest, sadly missed derby this weekend past, but everyone knew that ayway. Really looking forward to fest :D Should be lotta fun :D

RHi will be coming up for the next two weeks tommorrow, gotta get my room tidy, been singing lots of fallout boy today, wondering if i was good enough to go on x-factor lol.

After watching some people, i`d say yes. Thinking about it, would love to sing in a rocky/punk band, but dress and act wayyyy to preppy/middle class :D I`m gto look like admin staff, its weird,lol

And remeber the alternate lyrics to "your beautiful"

my voice is silly
my songs are poor
you keep on listning
to this manure
the press say im a genius
and you`d never question that
just keep on buying my cd`s
although they`re utter crap

your guillible
yourguiilble
your gullible its true
you saw my face
on a cd case
and the next thing that you knew
you had joined the brainwashed Que

you know , how the hel;l do you spell quewe? as in quewing for tickets or a club....
never had to spell it...hmmm....

anyways, catch y`all laters

Aha

2006-08-07T20:28:08Z

Okay, has been a while but hey, my journel.

Playing Breeze again and is fun. love playing him to bits... New costume looks cool and i feel a lot more well dressed and not so shoddy when it comes to clothes.

Am making a mask foir breeze for fest :) nice wolf skull mask heh heh heh

Life continues wonderfully with Rhi, we have loads of fun together tho its been almost 2 weeks since we last saw each other, which suck majorly.

Still, I see her this weekend, yay :)

Catch you laters , will update more, promise.

A conundrum

2006-06-07T22:02:55Z

Okay, here the thing.

I have a request in for a special fnh charcter. Knowing the way it works its gonna take a fair while for this request to go through and it may not even get passed. This charcter would be really cool to play and my lo`s put work into it and i dont want to take the piss. However he won`t be ready for this weekend. Roleplay wise hes already got a few friendships going and a few enemies too .

on the other hand i have a new pc ready a very blank character with lots of potential who i tihkn sounds cool.

Elf in brown, monster killer, basiclly i seek out the biggest badass monster and whack him.
thinking of tieing him in with you lostys background as a friend, give me ahook to actually be there. T^his way i get challenmge, i get to roleplay, i dont have to worry bout stupid guilds as i`ll be a 6penny scout and he`s ready for this weekend as i have everything i need. and i can do in dpeth roleplay with you losty and with rhi`s traldan elf.

Random though. Myself and Jase will never have characters that like each other. vimes has hated Azguz and Breeze and they wer ethe ones i continued for any length of time,lol

this is me ,sighning off for now

A cunning plan

2006-05-24T21:39:50Z

I have a very cunning plan......

Arghhh

2006-05-23T18:33:06Z

Okay, relaised my special won`t work, not cus of rules or background, more cus of the fact I wont be able to handle the heat of the costume, as I struggle with heat. Rhi relaised this as soon as i mentioned it, but as i was so excited didnt want to say, I wish i was as observant and smart as her.

So i`ve realised that i think things thorugh too much and this is what causes the downfall of my charcters. I can`t live up to the exspectations i have inside my head for them, so I quit them, i think i plan too much.

With this in mind i think i may play a scout, man with sword and shield, or 2 swords and 2 bucklers. Since i make shields it wont be a big deal to make 2 bucklers and i have a cool idea for the shape.may even et some more arrows for my bow and get the rest of them back from em. See, thinking too much. Scout with sword, think scout with sword.

i`ll get the lovley mr HammerHydra to make me a custom set of swords, i just need a basic concept.

Oh and I won`t be joining the raptors. I think i may go forestor and provide a more mobile accomplice to Howaths combat forestor. But i`m gonna have to think about it.

still, thinkinh too much, man with sword man with sword

My names bob and i`m a scout with a sword.

FNH

2006-05-18T19:25:51Z

Am feeling very very meh, Decided i didnt wanna play Farli no-more, reasons being, a) heavy armour, B) a 9 hit per loc, large shield combat monster with immunity to venom just isnt a challenge.. C) I dont want to roleplay him, i just can`t be bothered and that no way to feel 2 motnhs in. D) am I just re-creating Azguz? I guess so.

So, after springfest has passed and my lo`s sanity has retunred i`ll put in a request for a special, with adept help from tree on costume, should be good. Its a very limited charatcer that can`t possible end up being powerful or me having it easy :) will be a big challenge.

Just 6 major flaws and one minor advantage :D but it`s the roleplay I want, sure combat will be a big challenge, but it`ll be the roleplay, thinking of ways to preform basic actions in this costume ought to be fun, i`ve about worked out a way to open alchemy, suffice to say it takes a while.

If it don`t get passed, meh, i`ll take a while out and re-kindle my froth, i`m planning to purely monster for a while.

In other news, life with rhi is great, plans for house movings together are going well, I have an interview for a career graded 13,000 a year job in 2 weeks, with good prosepcts of getting it, more money is good :)

Am seeing rhi this weekend.She has a present for me, am very curious.

..........

2006-03-20T21:10:17Z

I started tis lIve journel to vent a lot of negative feeligns I had. Kinda get my head together. it worked really well to be honest.i`m happy, in love and very content with the world.

I use it more now to look at how my friends. see how rhia is, whcih won`t be a issue soon as she`ll be with me on a more permanent basis.

Guess the whole things kinda defunct.

Am happy. Miss you Rhi

Later Peeps

Thats me alrighty

2006-02-21T22:52:14Z

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ILLNESS...

2006-02-03T11:22:06Z

Ok, so myself and rhia have been stuck in bed for a week, cus we are both pretty ill.

On one hand, sucks being ill

On other, week spent with rhia, is very nice

Will update when feeling better

Missing Rhia

2006-01-25T21:36:03Z

Damm I wish she didnt live so far away, i`d love her to be round the corner. Still, i see her almost every weekend. I just wish my money situation was a bit easier so I could really treat her the way she deserves to be treated.

Hopefully by next week this`ll be the case.

Guildford banquet this weekend, Really can`t wait, is going to be a total blast. TIme spent with rhia is good time, plus i have monday off, so i have her all to myself :D which i`m very happy about.

In other news i need a smith, anysmith will do, preferably before guildford.

and i need a ref as well, one with vocal for a spell i have.Though i reckon i`ve got it sorted.

Need to prepare more, lots and lots more. I want to be perfectly ready and compoised

Which at the moment i`m not really.

We`ll see tommorrow. Miss you Rhi x x x x x

Update

2006-01-17T16:20:14Z

Its been a while since I updated my Livejourna; Page.

I`m feeling good, tho i`ve had flu this weekend.

I spent it with rhia at her house which was loads of fun, got to meet her family, which went well.

am mising her loads and loads and loads, its so annoying that we are so far apart.

In other news i`v been off work for 2 days which while in a way is nice, is kinda sucky as i know they need me.

dunno how i`m feeling atm
tired, ill worried rhias okay, as i have no credit till thursday, a bit depressed cus she isnt here, happy i`ll see her soon. worried bout organising the guildford banquet.

oh and i havnt heard from dav efor a while
hope hes okay.

will call rhia and him tonight.

meh meh meh meh meh

The Evening After

2006-01-08T23:26:33Z

Rhia left 5 Hours ago and I feel Miserable.

I`ve had a really wonderful week off with her, I feel like my hearts been ripped away, we didnt even get to say a proper goodbye cus she had to get on the us.

This week has confirmed everything for me, everything i thought, felt and belived.

So tonight for the 1st time in 9 days i`m sleeping alone, i`d give anything in the world for rhia to be lying next to me.

Sweet Dreams Honey, I love you.

lalal

2005-12-22T22:13:42Z

Tired, very very tired. Silly levels of tirdness. Doctor levels of tirdness

Works not too bad. Could be a lot worse in all honesty. I`m planning on looking for a permanent Job after Christmass

Everytihngs great with Rhia, couldnt be better really. I can`t wait to see her. Gonna be loads of fun.

Wish i wasnt so tired so I could enjoy the feeling more.

Hopefully all my friends are okay out there and if i havnt been in contact, its not cus i`m lazy, its cus i`m too tired to get out of bed.

Hope you have an excellent Christmass.

Lots of Love, Azguz

Friday i`m in Love

2005-12-14T17:13:02Z

Okay, do you belive its possible to fall for someone even though you just met them?
Like even though you`ve not been together long you feel like this person is the only one in the world.
Thats how i feel at the moment. I`ve fallen for her, totally and utterly and all the time we spent together just confirms it. I`m really happy atm. Life couldnt be much better.

I love you Rhiax xx xx xx xx

CTHULU

2005-12-07T13:22:53Z

Oh Great Cthulhu!

I have been an extremely industrious devotee this year.

In August, I defiled the grave of that traitor, Lovecraft (90 points). In June, I prepared an ocean voyage to R'lyeh (200 points). In December, I legally changed my name to Randolph Carter (-40 points). In February, I visited my relatives in Innsmouth (100 points). In March, I sacrificed riak to Cthulhu (500 points). Last week, I fed codezombie to a Shoggoth (250 points).

In short, I have been very good (1100 points) and deserve to get hooked up with one of those cute Innsmouthers.

Your humble and obedient servant,
Azguz

Submit your own plea to Cthulhu!

Ah, life :D

2005-12-06T20:32:25Z

Okay, everthing is so awesome at the moment. It really couldnt be better.

Am seeing Rikki soon and in decemebr for a whole 9 days :D joy!!

Work is okay, i`m ill atm, but its looking up, am working hard and geting on with it. Is a lot more bearable now i`m spending all day thinking bout her :)

Seem`s like i`ve come outta a tunnel, there may be more ahead, but for now, i`m gonna enjoy the sensation of freedom and the ability to breath

Love you all, especially you Rhia :)

Current mood - BOUNCING OF THE CEILING !!

WOW- that was unexspected.

2005-11-29T20:48:06Z

Okay, am no longer single. Met a very lovely lady this weekend and we hooked up.Am more than a little happy.

Life seems to be going well at the moment. I can`t really complain,so i`ll leave it at that.

Life is good, ladyfriend is beautiful, funny ect

Yay

Note to self

2005-11-21T21:14:33Z

Don`t Update unless Sober.

Okay. Works good. Thats a bonus.

Social Life- Okay, not been in the mood for much recently.

Personal Life - Alone , having a bit of a relapse, but coming to terms with it.

Still annoyed? - Yes, but I doubt i`ll ever stop beating myself up over this.

Resigned - Yeah.

Hopefull - yeah

LARP - A lot better, people are frothing again.

Roleplay - Well, have the new WFRP books, need players tho...Still, is looking up.

Bought star wars lego Knights, Is Silly amounts of fun.

Gues thats everyting for now.

Been Drinklin :D

2005-11-19T21:42:32Z

S`peen a while since i had owt to drink, and tonight i did.

I feel quite weird, guess id forgotten the effect ofg alchahol.

Dunno how i feel atm, am caught between lonley,tired and misrerable. Not really feeling tooo poslitive.

Thinkin beds probly the best idea.

Dunno how my lifes gonna urn out. This annoys me. Like to know whats going on. And I get the feeling not everyone is being entir;ly truthfull with me, Which pisshes me reet off.
People shuddent beat round the bush with oi.

Meh, badgers

The day after

2005-11-15T22:04:39Z

Seems I always get this stuff out in one big go, then It builds up again. Irritating it is.

Derbys begining to get very interesting. Player driven plot it always good, specially if i`m involved :D

Not sure if i want to go to Sheffield, 2 hrs is a long way and I`m tired atm.

Can`t belive its 10. Were does my day go? I think i`m gonna go bed early. My boss has picked me up about being late today so i need to get in on time.

So tired, Very alone. Guess this is the way its mean to be. Feel like i`m falling very far. Don`t think I can even fight anymore.

Alone

Been a while...

2005-11-14T22:36:12Z

Well, its been a couple of weeks. Has anything changed? No, not really. i`m still pretty annoyed at myself. Things I should of said, actions I should of Taken, a person who walked away from me into the night, which I should of gone after. Irratated over my Own lack of Control more than anything. Both my inbability to say both negative and positive things that i really think. Also my unwillingness to act when i`m unsure of the consequences, I`ve never been one for leaps of faith.
Still, works got better as i`m not under so much stress in my new department, the ladies i work with are lovely, if a little Gobby.
In many ways I`ve cheered up a lot and , as my friends have commented, i`m begining to be more like myself that I have been. Admittadly I feel shit at the moment, but meh, its probly just tonight.

Am I lonely? I`m really not sure. What am I looking for? Perhaps someone who truly understands me, the driving force behind everything I do. Though its very hard to talk about it, So its not that easy to realise. Maybe one day people will realise the heart I wear on my sleeve isnt how I always feel.

At least I take some consolidation that all my friends are begining to take their first steps to happiness. I see so much potential for Great things right now, which is wonderfull, alas that I don`t see it for myself.

But then,maybe I exspect too much. Not sure what I exspect anymore,I think whats worrying me is that i`m no longer capable of Love, And I don`t mean the platonic Love I feel for almost everyone, The love between two.

Ialways like to have the answers, No matter how bad. People laugh, when I say i`d face down a dragon with no hesitation. But I would, because Live or Die, I know how to deal with it. Now I feel like I`m swinging into the mist, unsure of my targets, or even if there is anything there...